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Hi friends,

I’ve been refraining from writing up this post for months now as I don’t ever want my blog to have content that isn’t too upbeat and happy but I feel that now I might just talk about it and get it over and done with :) x

Life has its ups and downs, I’m sure you’re aware of this, as am I. But you never truly get to see how much the ‘downs’ can really affect someone life until you experience them for yourself. When I look back on my life I see how much the ups and downs have affected anything and everything, from my mood and personality, to the way others see me (or how I think they see me).

I’ve always had my blog as a way of escaping the drama of my life, but recently I’ve come to see there really isn’t an escape. With blogging comes stress and what feels to me as an expectation of what my blog HAS to be like. I’m forever caught up in a spiral of trying to make my blog posts detailed, entertaining and of a high quality, but not having enough time or not having the same motivation as I used to when I first begun.

I am always looking at so many peoples’ blogs and being insanely jealous of how amazing they are and how great their posts are and I realise I can’t do that. Don’t get me wrong, I am in love with my blog but I feel like I could make it so much better.

As of late (the past year I guess) my life has been more of a ‘down’ then an ‘up’ yes there are always good parts, the parts where I’m crying with laughter and have my best friend/s by my side, but it’s the other parts that stand out to me the most- the ‘downs’ This, in my eyes, is a terrible way of living and I really need to change that.

Not only has my life been rather dramatic, full of tears and bad thoughts and more down then up but my faith (religion) is being affected because of it.

I’ve been of the Christian faith since I was born, I used to feel a connection to god but as I’ve grown up, the connection has faded I suppose. Being around my peers (not my friends specifically but everyone in my year at school) so much can affect my outlook on life, whether that be good or bad I’m yet to discover. But I do know that being around people that don’t follow the same religion that I do or believe in different things to me can really affect my way of thinking.

God has played a huge role in my entire life and I feel that as my religion isn’t as major thing in my life as it was when I was younger, the way I process events has changed.

The entire point of this post is not to ramble on and make it a ‘click bait’ title so I can get more views or whatever- it’s to give you all an explanation about what I’m soon about to say;

Yes, I love blogging, yes it has played a big role in my life for quite a while now, but there comes a time where my quality of life comes first. I need to spend some time focusing on reaching a new level of happiness, not looking at the number of followers, likes or views I’m receiving but focusing on the quality of my blog posts. I need to achieve a stronger relationship with good- and to do that I need a break. I’m sick of living a life of thinking I need to be like everyone else, with how I act, what I wear, and even what I blog about. Life shouldn’t be about that it should be about focusing on the good and eradicating the bad from my life.

My mind set has been on things like ‘reaching 600 followers on my blog Instagram’ and reaching a certain amount of likes or views on my blog and that’s not what I should be focusing on. I made a blog to share my life and for it to be a way for me to express myself to an entirely different group of people. I’ve met so many amazing people, I’ve made best internet friends and gotten to know so many of you. I’ve made so many ‘internet’ memories that I could never ever forget and I can’t wait to make so many more. I love you all and your support means the world to me. I don’t know how long I’ll be gone for- I just need some time to myself. I hope you all understand.

Sorry for the not very happy post lovelies, you all mean the world to me and I will still be remaining active on my instagram (im not sure if I’ll be posting photos but I’ll be liking and commenting on all of yours)

Finally, thank you. Thank you to every single one of you for supporting me and being on this journey with me.

This isn’t goodbye, this is…. Until next time.

-Lili x ❤

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love.

-Ephesians 3:16-17